Why do "we" as people, so often forget to appreciate the things we have in our lives, big and small?  It seems that life and it's lessons are certainly not on a linear path(I guess this should be obvious??).  Lessons keep needing to be relearned.  Things always go in cycles.  I am constantly amazed by life(all of what it entails) and the dichotomy of it, how it is all so simple, yet mind-blowingly complex.  I think that ultimately, everything comes down to balance, yin and yang sort of thing etc., from the most complex to the most base.  I think it is the answer to every problem in some way.  The trouble is, it seems, that things can always, and at any time go out of balance fairly simply. 

This, makes me wonder if wisdom is really just about getting better at re-aligning when things go off course.  Can we ever really get to a place where we are always balanced, or don't often need re-learning of seemingly the most basic of life's lessons?  Can a person get to this point in a lifetime?  I wonder if anyone really gets to a point where they always remember to use every moment in a way that they are proud of, in a way that if given the chance, they wouldn't change or take back.    I wonder all of this because I get frustrated with myself when I feel like I have slipped backwards or regressed in ways that seem to happen over and over again.  Like, for instance, I have a really hard time through the winter...every winter.  Every fall I think I am prepared and in a "good" place.  Then slowly weird winter me creeps in and I don't even realize the moment when this happens or really that it even happens until Spring comes and I feel so good.  Then I'm like hey, I haven't been good.  A part of my consciousness seems to hibernate in the winter.  Just checks out.

Anyway, I am so thankful right now for the sunshine and how nice it feels to have it on my skin again, how lovely it is to hear the birds chirping all around me, how romantic and light it feels having the windows open in the house and the warm breeze pouring through the house.  I have been really letting the moment sink in again.  I forgot what that felt like for a little while.  Like usual.  But you know what all of this contemplation brings me back to?  Balance.  In everything.  I wouldn't appreciate this sun nearly as much and the sound of those chirping birds so much, if I didn't have the long, cold winter every year.  See....balance.

Here's a picture of Ella from yesterday:

Also, this is my favourite song of the moment, "Be Okay" by Ingrid Michaelson.  I'm not sure why I have never heard of her before.  I got one of her albums last week and I am totally loving the whole thing.

Happy Easter long weekend!!!!



New products in my shop!!!

I am really excited about my newest kit that I added to my Etsy shop today, flag banners!!!  Ya, I have been seeing them everywhere and I just had to make my own. I really like how they turned out and I already made a layout using one of the banners.

Here is the kit preview:

And here is my layout that I made with one of the banners, which also happens to be another ScrapMuse layout with my March kit.  This layout is about Ella and some of the things that are unique to her right now. Everything is from the kit and the add-on except for the black cardstock, the black acrylic paint, the bling, the embossing powder, the sequins and the brass wire, which are from my stash. The pps are all MME.

 Thanks for looking and have a great day!



Dentistry@Arnprior and BEST find *ever* at Buck or Two!!!!!

I brought both my kids to the dentist for the first time, this morning. Contrary to what I expected to happen, Owen was quite comfortable with going in and the whole process where Ella was much more fearful and had to be coaxed into every little thing. Owen even went into the room by himself with the hygienist. Ella was completely fine until it was her turn, at which point she stopped dead in front of the door and just said "no". SHe wasn't angry or screaming or lashing out. Just saying no. SHe said it probably 4-5 more times following that, before we were able to talk her into the room. Then we had to talk her into the chair. The we had to talk her into agreeing to have the chair move up and down and back and forth. It went on like this for every single part. When it came time to us "asking" her if the dentist could come in and see her now, she was ready to burst into tears. I reassured her and she allowed him to come in. He was very sweet and gentle with her and she liked him right away, so that was great. He told us that he has 2 little girls, one, Ella's age almost exactly. Anyway, we got over this hurdle which is a big relief. Especially since the dentist said that they both have very healthy mouths.

After the dentist appointment, I obviously had to go to the Buck or Two that is in the same mall. SO glad I did, because I found the best find EVER! A bunch of 8x8" Cosmo Cricket paper pads for, wait for it............., you won't believe it! $1.00 each. I bought 7, 1 each of 6 different packs and a second "Hello Sunshine" pack, cause I love it. I'm kind of thinking I should have bought them all for gifts and RAKs and such, even just for paper for the kids, or loot bags. Whatever, $1.o0. I am SO going back and buying them all. There were probably like 40 there. Hopefully no Arnprior ladies read this post before I get a chance to get back there. Anyway, here they are in all their glory....and please feel free to leave any and all comments about how jealous you are and how lucky I am below! Hehehe.

Happy Weekend!



Pictures and Layouts to Share

First off, I will share the last of my March ScrapMuse projects.

This first layout is called, It is the little things that matter the most, and I created this one for our theme at ScrapMuse this month. Every month, one of our layouts has to be based on the theme that we have picked. This month the theme was the title "It's the Little Things". I learned how to make the spiral flowers on this layout by following Chiqui's instructions in this month's newsletter. Her article this month is on how to make a variety of awesome easy flowers. Everything on this layout is from the March kit and add-on, but the white cardstock is from my own stash.

This next project was super easy. It literally took me 5 minutes to put together and it features a couple more of Chiqui's flowers. I found this 5x7 frame at Dollarama for $1.50!!!!!! Crazy eh? All of the pps are from the March ScrapMuse kit, Spring Has Sprung.

This next one is a layout about Ella playing at the park last week. She can finally climb up the tire ladder at the park which is pretty momentous for her and I both. Now I can do a lot more relaxing when I am at the park!! Yay, they actually grow up! Everything on this layout is from March's kit and add-on, except for the little bits of black, white and orangey-red cardstock, which are from my stash.

And my final layout to share is of Owen, called Mr. Personality. The last few months he has taken on quite the comedic flair. He loves to make us laugh any chance he gets and I thought these pictures really picked up on his personality. All of the pps and tags are from this month's kit. I added the 2 red brads and the white cardstock from my own stash and the chipboard letters are actually from the December kit.

Now for some pictures:

Here's another of Ella at the park that day, looking pretty proud overlooking the park from her perch.

Funny one of Owen looking mildly distressed:

Ella telling stories instead of eating her lunch. In case anyone is wondering what the gross looking blob of food is, it is tuna salad. The kids like it straight up, without bread. I'm not going to argue, straight protein without the carbs, done.

I caught this cool pic of Ella looking out the back door and you can see her reflection so clearly....I definitely see a scrapbook page out of this one:

Ella cranky on a time out:

Sitting on Daddy later that day, seconds after she farted on him. HAHA!

My wackadoodle children trying to get a laugh as usual, it worked. Excuse the HEAPS of laundry in the background...guilty:

That's about all for now on the homefront here, just been enjoying the chance to be outside again. We have been spending every spare moment outside. This week is a little cooler than last, but still dealable.

Oh and before I forget, I wanted to say that you should all check out the March Newsletter from ScrapMuse this month. I think it's the best one since I started with them.

There are articles on 10 uses for baker's twine, Chiqui's handmade flowers, ways to use your old deco-edge scissors, using bleach on your paper, how to host a crop and much much more.

Check it out. DO IT! Lol.

Have a great day, it's almost the weekend! YAY!!!



Thank you Spring!

I cannot believe how fast and furious Spring has come on around these parts this year. Spring is not joking around. Almost ALL of our snow is gone, today it is supposed to reach a high of 16 degrees celcius, which is unheard of for this time of year. Anyway, it's a perfect week for March Break and we have been spending every spare minute outside. Plus we got to put the clocks ahead an hour this weekend, which sucks to lose an hour, but is amazing, because we have another hour of sunshine every day!!!!! I can't begin to tell you all how happy this makes me. We have been barbequing up a storm and cleaning up our disgusting yard. We don't pick up the dog poop over the winter, so there is a LOT, I mean a LOT of poop on our lawn come Spring.

Here are some photos of Owen and Ella making the best of the weather and going at it on their bikes.

Ella dare devil-ing it up:

Owen biking like a mad-man:

Well that's it for now, have a great day and hopefully if you have weather as lovely as us, then you get a chance to go out and enjoy it!



More "Spring Has Sprung" March ScrapMuse Layouts

I have 2 more layouts to share from this month's delicious kit from ScrapMuse, appropriately called "Spring Has Sprung". It features beautifully coordinating papers from My Mind's Eye and Scribble Scrabble, which are perfect for so many themes. It works great for Spring, Summer or Fall layouts and can be used to create both feminine and masculine layouts. That is always a plus for me, because of the versatility.

As soon as I saw some of the colours in this kit, I knew they would be perfect for scrapping some of my vacation photos. I managed to ram 6 pictures onto this layout, which might actually be a first for me. This layout is a collection of some of the photos of the resort, to try to capture some of the magic that I felt when I was there. Here it is, called: My Time in Paradise.

The next layout, I knew I wanted to do something with this photo as soon as I saw the adorable umbrella pattern paper by MME. I love the look on Owen's face in this photo. This photo managed to capture the look of pure joy and surprise on his face as well as immense downpour of rain that happened spontaneously, you can tell by his shirt, how immediately this happened. I just so happened to be taking pictures at the time. Yay!!! I wanted to do something fun so I didn't think about this layout much, I just kind of put it together. Which is a fun, no pressure way to scrap. Kind of similar to the feeling of doing arts and crafts when you were really little. This one is called: Too Bad it Didn't Rain Umbrellas!:

Have a great week, I will be making a real attempt to keep up with my blog more regularly from now on. It is good for me, I find. It is another way to feel connected, if you know what I mean?



ScrapMuse layout to share!!! Finally!

So I wanted to share my first layout with you that I created using this month’s kit. The kit is full of wonderfully delicious colours that mix so well together and are perfect for scrapping Spring and Summer layouts.

My layout is called “you are sooo CUTE as a GIRL”. I thought the papers worked really well with this picture of my husband from when he was little. His older sister and her friends enjoyed dressing him up, and he let them, although I think that he was under duress.

This layout was simple and quick to put together. I did a lot of edge distressing and some doodling.

Have a great weekend!



Beach Wedding Album

This is the beach that got to hang out on last month with my best friends.


I wanted to share what I have done so far of Steph's (my dear friend who was married in Mexico last month) wedding album that I am doing for her. After thinking a lot about it, and asking Steph what she would prefer, I decided to do the album digitally. Once I am finished and I have the order all sorted out, I will order it as a hardcover book online.

Paper is a more meaningful expression for me, as opposed to digital, but there are several reasons why I thought it would be more appropriate to do it this way. The top of the list for me is the fact that the finished album will fold flat and the pages will not be covered in plastic, which I think will all result in a nicer finished product.

Anyway, I am having a lot of fun creating the pages for this album. I still want to maybe add some more journaling to some of the 'finished" pages. I will have to talk to Steph for ideas.

Do any of you have any comments, suggestions, ideas for my pages so far or for any that I still have to do? Can any of you share some wedding pages that you have done? I have lots of pages to go and need ideas! I would appreciate if any of you share links to your work.

That's it for now, have a great day!!



March ScrapMuse Preview

It’s March and that means everyone gets a look at the March Kit from ScrapMuse! These colors are perfect for all of us who are anxiously awaiting spring. If you’re a member of ScrapMuse, you will automatically receive this beautiful kit titled “Spring Has Sprung!”. Otherwise, head over to the ScrapMuse Store where you can purchase one. All kits ship on the 15th of the month.

This kit contains NEW paper from Scribble Scrabble and My Minds Eye, not to mention all the embellishments that Missy packs into a kit. The full list of contents is below.

Kit Contains the following:


Scribble Scrabble – Nanas Trunk – No. 351

Scribble Scrabble – Nanas Trunk – No. 352

Scribble Scrabble – Nanas Trunk – No. 353

Scribble Scrabble – Nanas Trunk – No. 354

Scribble Scrabble – Nanas Trunk – No. 355

Scribble Scrabble – Nanas Trunk – No. 356

MME- Jack and Jill – Favor ite Thing Colorful Umbrella

MME – Jack and Jill – Favorite Thing Bright Argyle

MME – Jack and Jill – Sweet Thing Yummy Stripe

MME – Jack and Jill – Life is Good Serene Spots

MME – Jack and Jill – Cute Beautiful Blooms

MME – Life Stories – Frequency Grid


MME – Jack and Jill – Cute Title

MME – Jack and Jill – Cute Alphabet

MME – Jack and Jill – How Sweet it is Journaling Card

MME – Life Stories – Accessory Sheet #1

Endofthedaycrafting(Etsy) – Baker’s Twine Blue (2 feet)

Endofthedaycrafting(Etsy) – Baker’s Twine Red (2 feet)

Basic Grey – Nook and Pantry – Buttons (assorted)

Prima Marking – Daisy Dreams – Lagoon (1/2 package)

May Arts – Velvet Cordoroy – Aqua (1 yard)

October Afternoon – Mini Market Alphabet Stickers – Very Merry Teal and Black

ScrapMuse – Kraft Tags (4)

JujaCrafts(Etsy) – Organza Flowers (2)

Candy Bar

Have a great day!



I have loads to share right now, but it will have to wait until later today, but I just came across this video and I wanted to share it right away. It is incredible and inspiring.


I will check back in later to update about my trip to Mexico with photos.

Have a great day! It's sunny here today!! YAY!



Winners of DigiCuts Designs Valentine's Contest

Yay!!! SO 57 people were in the drawing for this contest and I selected 3 winners. Thank you so much to everyone who became a follower or who joined the DigiCuts Designs page. I didn't think that there would be nearly as much interest, so I am very excited. I will probably hold another contest in a while. I also decided that as a thank you to everyone else who didn't win the Valentine's Kit, who did participate in this contest, I will give you 50% off of whatever you would like in my store, from now until the end of February. Just Etsy convo me if you want to place an order and I will make you a custom order that reflects the discount. Thank you so so much for participating, I totally appreciate all of the interest and the feedback that I have received.

SO....the winners(chosen by random number generator, see below):

#17 Ruth Tacoma....who is my design teammate at ScrapMuse, YAY Ruth!
#18 Suzette Brady Brasel
#48 Julie Harris

Congratulations ladies, I will need your email addresses so I can send you your kits. Also, I would totally love to see what you create with your kits if you use them. i will share them here if you send me photos.

Have a great week!



DigiCuts Designs Contest!!!

From now until Sunday at midnight, anyone who becomes a fan of my Facebook page , or who becomes a follower of my blog will be entered into a draw to win 1 of 3 of the Valentine's bundle from my Etsy shop.

It is a big kit which includes both .jpeg and .svg files.
The bundle includes:

5 shapes
4 Word... Art files
3 Frames/Journaling spots
7 borders

The winners will be chosen by random selection, with a random selection generator. I will announce the winners here and on my blog. Hope everyone gets a chance to play along!!!

Have a great weekend!



My Valentine

SO I just made a layout using my Valentine's Day Kit that I made for my Etsy shop and I love how it turned out. I made it instead of a card for David. I have to think of something else to do for him since I will be away in Mexico with my friends on Valentine's day. I still can't believe that he agreed to be responsible for the kids for an entire week. I am leaving next Thursday, one week left. I still haven't done any shopping. Speaking of which, does anyone in Ottawa have an idea of where to find an inexpensive, wide-brimmed hat this time of year???? I am a little nervous that I am going to fry up in two seconds flat in the sun there.

Anyway, here is my layout. Everything is cut from the kit except for the flower, the chipboard circle and the background:

Have a great day!



Valentine's SVG Kit and Thank yous!

First I just wanted to thank everyone who shared their kind words of comfort and encouragement with me in regards to my last post. Reading people's responses actually made me feel much better. Sometimes all you need is to feel understood and not alone. I am even starting to feel less sick and starting to get some energy back. Thank goodness.

Now that I'm starting to feel more like myself again, I am going to try to work on my Etsy shop more. I really love doing it and everytime I get a sale I feel like a giddy little child, like someone actually bought something from me!!!! AMAZING!

Yesterday I got a bunch of Valentine's stuff done that I am selling as four different kits or as one big bundle. Here it is:

I'm thinking about doing some other digital elements, like overlays for photos, masks and maybe some other digital stuff that can wither be printed up and cut out or used for digital scrapbooking. I will see. It usually all depends on my mood.

OH and I have an exciting little tidbit to share: one of my layouts from my December ScrapMuse kit was requested by Scrapbooking.com for this month's issue of their online magazine. They also included my article on how to rebuild the page. If you're interested, here's the LINK!

Have a great day!!!



WARNING: melancholy post

I will first say that I am alright and that this is just a blip on the radar screen. I have tried to make an effort to be mostly positive on my blog, but after much thought I realize that I started this blog as a way to express myself, to put things out into the universe, to get things off of my chest. So no more rules about positivity. This is my life, and it's not all good. I am sad and not coping well lately. I feel lonely and confused and resentful of people in my life, mainly my family. This is another reason that I didn't want to gripe about family issues here, to respect their privacy. But, I'm kind of over it.

Over the last few years, since just before my first pregnancy, my life has been an emotional roller coaster with my family. The long and short of it is that after several years of feeling like my relationship with my mother was unhealthy at best, I decided that I couldn't be a part of it anymore. After August of 2009, I haven't communicated with my mother. I don't even really have words to describe how difficult and confusing the process has been. I am up and down and all over the place about it. It is a strange grieving process when the person is still around. It is even more complicated due to the fact that I have kids that still want to see her. Harder, still, because Owen thinks that it is because of me that they don't see her. He thinks I am keeping them from her. I don't want to correct him because then they will be even more confused as to why? My mom has seen my kids 2 times since August. Two times. She lives 25 minutes away.

It has been so difficult the disillusionment that came from having two beautiful kids and having a picture of what the family situation would be like and coming to terms with the reality of that picture being so vastly different than what I had imagined. My kids hardly ever see any of their grandparents and it really, really hurts. I realize that this probably affects me more than it does them. I am trying so hard to be okay with the reality. I am a dreamer and a romantic and this is the story of my life. My pictures are always too glossy and vibrant and I always seem to make the process more difficult in letting the real "picture" come in. I fight it the whole way. I am always trying to teach myself to not have expectations, even of myself. I can never even live up to my expectations, I am always letting myself down. But still those expectations fight their way in.

My situation with my father has also gone down the tubes, with my aunt, with some cousins. The problem is, that I have grown to learn that our lives are a reflection of exactly what we have created, what we feel safe with, what we are asking for. People in our lives just line up and give you exactly what you are asking for from them on a subconscious level. Now I need to figure out what I really want, what I would like to feel comfortable with.

My heart hurts right now and I felt like I needed to put that out there.

Does anyone else reading this have any advice re: family messiness? Have you been through something similar? What did you do to make it through the hurt?


I’m a very grateful and appreciative WHINER

Confused? Yah, me too. Just kidding, I have been sick lately and absolutely tired. Haven't recovered yet from the holidays. I managed to get myself pretty stressed out despite making a lot of effort to simplify the season for our fam. Anyway, I have been feeling sick for a God-awful amount of time now and so I can't help but be a bit complainy. I do have to stress however how much I realize how blessed I am in the big picture, and I remain grateful and appreciative of everything I have in my life right now, hence the bizarre post title.

the "crew":

One major reason to be grateful right now, is my trip to Peurto Vallerta, Mexico with my best girlfriends for one of our "crew"'s wedding. I am very much looking forward to it and I think it will be the beginning of a fantastic chapter in my life and this new year. I just turned 30 about a week and a half ago and I am really certain that it will only get better from here. I think this is going to be a huge year for me on a personal growth level and I am so ready for it. I am stressing a little ( a lot) about being away from my kids and David for that long and the likelyhood of some homesickness. I am also terrified of airplanes and have not been on or around one since 2000. Actually. It was the trip that did me in. Australia. Enough said. Love the country, absolutely stunning, just loathed getting there and back. What I especially loathed, was the fact that not only did we have to take like 4 flights to get to the place, we flew all over the frigging place once we were there. I think I remember taking something like 50 take offs and landings in the month that we travelled. No biggy...if you don't, like, really truly believe that you're going to die every single time you happen to take off or land in a plane. You guessed it...I really truly believe that I'm going to die every single time I happen to take off or land in a plane. Yup, that's me, I'm that girl. The good thing is that it dulls down to a somewhat bearable general sense of dread once we are in the air, but the anxiety doesn't go away because I know about the whole landing thing that is inevitably going to happen. None of this would even be that bad if it weren't for the fact that the low-grade terror keeps me from being able to get out of my seat(even to go to the bathroom, I just don't go), or sleep, or look out the window(it's just so unnattural for this huge machine filled with hundreds of people to be gliding and propelling its way through the air, tens of thousands feet above the ground).

Then there was the "incident" that occured mid-flight over the Pacific, going the opposite way of the sun for the entire flight (ie, pitch blackness the entire time) on our way to Australia. It was an incident that both completely solidified my loathe for flight and proved my ineptness in the face of crisis in one fell swoop that came in the form of a man collapsing. Let me set the stage first, I was actually the only person around me that I could see that was awake for miles on the plane. I was miserable, exhausted, and watching "Ninth Gate" of all things (a horror movie), when all of a sudden I notice a rustling behind the sheet that acts like a second smell barrier(I'm assuming) that is in front of the bathroom door. Suddenly a man falls through the curtain, BAM, flat onto the floor on his face. Doesn't move. Nor do I. It was probably only a few seconds, but it seemed like an eternity that I sat there in sheer terror, paralyzed with fear, both because of the shock and the watching of a horror movie, staring at the man which I believed to be a corpse, at this point. It was then, that rather than get up to help the man(because I was scared he was dead), I clamoured for the attendent buzzer and started whisper yelling "help please!!!!" "help!!!" while frantically pressing said buzzer. They came pretty quickly and it turned out that he had just passed out. Anyway, it was a miserable little lesson that told me that I need to get a hold of myself in crisis. Yikes! HA!

One thing I do have to say is that because my step mom travels a lot, she was at the time a part of the AIR Canada VIP lounge, so we got to travel going to all of the lounges in every airport. Lots of free food, booze, showers, comfortable places to relax, games at some of them. It was awesome and honestly made the whole thing so much more bearable for me.

Anyway, this time I am hoping to get a prescription for something...maybe horse tranquilizers?

Okay so, gazillions of pics and stuff to share:

LO of the fam jam on the beach on Owen's bday:

Boxing Day at my Dad's and Step Mom's:

A blur of hussle:

Christmas Day at my sister in law', David is the freak with his toque on in the background, kinda cute though, because the toque he refused to take off was his new John Deere toque from Owen and Ella:

Christmas morning, 5:30, ungodly:

Cards I made for Christmas:

Christmas Eve, we watched Elf:

December 23, my sister and her bf Alex came over for our Christmas celebration, the kids had so much fun opening the awesome gifts that their Auntie got for them:

After dinner, it was Monopoly time, I was the bully fish that kept cornering everyone's pieces.

Getting pretty serious

Yay, playing outside:

Recent lo:

My birthday dinner, my sister and I:

Then out to a comedy club after, can't explain everyone's weird faces:


Steph's wedding shower:

My best friends:

Card I made for Steph and David:

Ornaments that I made for Owen's teacher and the kid's babysitter:

Christmas pageant:

Tree Farm:

David lugging our HUUUUGE tree inside:

A little poster I made for my Dad to advertise his jam group on Kijiji:

So finally that's done for sharing old pictures, I have many more new ones and some ScrapMuse stuff to share, but it will have to wait, I am tired now.

Good night!